Making the right Decision? :(

For now, I am thinking twice before I make the right decision.
Should I let go? Or hold on?

Many questions left unanswered are running in my head.
Does He really love me? Why is He doing this to me?

It’s like torture, if he only knows. It really pains me, seeing him unhappy with me.

It hurts like hell man. I don’t know if I can take much more of this crap.

There are things that hurt me so much, but I just hide it from him.

I don’t want him to know what I’m going through. I’m trying to be strong,

but I guess this is enough. I guess I’m the only one fighting for a love that is really not meant to be.

I thought this would last, I hoped and I prayed every night, that he would be the man that I’d share my life with… but I guess that wasn’t enough. Even though I’m going through this pain, he never was regret for me. I’m still hoping that I would really feel that he loves me very much.
I’ve sacrificed and suffered too much. But I guess for him it’s not enough. He never trusted my love.
I don’t blame him for that; I was the one who made him not to trust me. But that was all in the past man. I’ve changed. I really did.

If you’re reading this, balo ka sakit na kaayo
daghan kaayo ko ginatago sa imoha nga gusto nako iingon

but I can’t seem to find the right words and the right time.

Sa panan’aw nako, gikapoy najud ka. Gisumhan, pagsaba nalang beh?

Sige lang mart, dawaton nako kung unsa man ang tubag nimo. Mart love kaayo taka.

Pero wala kay salig sakong gugma. Mart gakalipay pa ba giyapon ka nako?

Darn it daghan kaayo ko gusto i-pangutana jud niya bei.

I guess happy endings doesn’t really exists in reality. They’re only in fairytales.

You’re my only destiny Martlu Ratunil.